Time to rewrite this page, since another synchronicity struck this afternoon. It was by far not as negative as this acrosstic says, but it had to do with control. I had been writing a story about the lottery held because our king celebrates his birthday this Monday, and was writing in past tense to make it seem as this had already happened. When I went out to buy the ticket the background image of this acrosstic jumped out at me, just showing me I am in control. It was even in my favorite color, orange!
And this I truly believe: I am in control, but sometimes it is good to be reminded of it. It is somewhat coincidental that I am now watching an episode of Black Mirror on the side, where it seems the choices are limited to deciding what to view and what not to view, and hoping for a better world that only happens above a certain score on the leaderboard. But even in a world like that, love appears to pop up spontaneously!
And that is what it's all about: I'm spending a lot to support my girlfriend and her family, just like the guy on Black Mirror is now gifting a girl he just met 12 million points to try out on Hot Shot. There is a definite difference with me though: I've known her for over ten years already, and have no doubts about her love.
And so we play the lottery hoping to speed up our future, but meanwhile we're enjoying every aspect of our journey together. And that sometimes means having to choose where to spend my money. That might mean someone else get less supported, but if they then turn against her as if she is the culprit, then they just wrote themselves out of our shared future!
Or will I end like the guy in Black Mirror, bringing about unfiltered truth to the judges in front of the cameras?
